The worst week ever.

Well how do we start off? Monday was any old day except for that morning was the day Fox 6 came to record our band for Christmas. Monday wasn't so bad. Tuesday, however, I woke up with a terrible cough, after my first class I went to the nurse to get my temp checked, that thing would say 98 even if I had a fever of 104! So I called my mom and she came to sign me out anyway, it was pretty bad. So I get home and cough up some lungs and FINALLY fall asleep. After waking up, still feeling horrible, I see it's 3 in the afternoon. Then my boyfriend messages me on Facebook and says "call me." then I knew something was instantly wrong. I look to Facebook for a split second and see my friend's status to be "How could you leave us....you're like our father." So I called Tyler. He then proceeds to say the impossible sentence.."Haskew's last day is next Thursday." I snap with denial as he tells me that our band director, our father, our mentor, the greatest man is leaving us. I begin sobbing and sit with my mouth open in shock. I then realize it's Tuesday....his last jazz band with me..I, not even paying one bit of attention to the fact of my sickness, run out the door with only an hour to spare. I get to the band room and proceed to play in jazz band. My band director, sad, lets us go early. I talked to him and he let me know he was doing it for his family. I still cried...a lot. That whole night I cried and cried. Wednesday I wake up praying it was a dream but was quickly slapped in the face with reality. My mom comes in there and checks my temp and I now had a fever of 100.5...great. So I decided nothing was going to get in the way of me spending what time I had left with Mr. Haskew. "I'll go to the doctor and then go back to school." after the doctors I was told I couldn't go back to school until Thursday because of my fever. I still said I was going to check into 4th block, which was band. I go home and lay down and still sick, I start getting sick to my stomach. I then proceed to throw up. I was still determined to go to school until after the 4th time I then lay down and sleep. Another day wasted. I wake up Thursday morning, the last performance I had with Haskew, I refused to even consider missing this, so I went to school all day, feeling like crap. I still managed to get through the day and keep down most food. Coughing was still terrible and I still had a fever. That night we had our concert and it was the most emotionally night ever. It tore me up and broke my heart to hear Haskew say "and this ends this chapter of the Pride." crying still and still sick, I went home and cried. Friday morning I woke up and went to Gadsden state to teach the water festival. Again, still sick. I carried 2 bags of cough drops with me. Afterwards I call work to see if they want me going to work (because I'd rather NOT cough on everyone or their food.) and they tell me not to come in, so I don't. After crying and being so sick all week I have the bright idea to do a tiny bit of shopping done because I won't get the chance to again, well now I might be in trouble. Here I am Saturday, STILL sick. Work won't be good at all I already know but I'll still get through and hopefully not be put in a position to kill anyone. I just pray that God is with me the rest of this week and also with the children from the Connecticut school. This week so far has been nothing but tears, puke, coughing, and sleep and I hate it. Next week is my last week with Haskew and I don't care how I feel, it will be the BEST.

Halloween Time!

Like I said before, today Tyler and I put up decorations so heres some pictures!

Why I love October!

Hello you guys! It's been a long time! Well, it's getting one of my FAVORITE times of the year, FALL!!!! I love October! It starts cooling down (Thank you Jesus!) the leaves start changing really pretty colors, and IT SMELL LIKE PUMPKIN EVERYWHERE! (That's my favorite.) I have lately had an unhealthy addiction to Pinterest. Tomorrow I am going to be putting up some decorations with family and Tyler (my boyfriend), listening to Halloween music, and then we will be watching The Nightmare Before Christmas, so I'm pretty excited! I might even make some awesome snack! We'll just have to see! I will probably post some pictures and stuff of how good we did! I am so ready to get some pumpkins too! I am also going to haunted houses with friends! So, YAY! Anyway there will be a lot of pictures and such, Halloween is also my favorite because it begins the holidays! Yay!!!! Hope everyone has a good day!

Why I find my relationship much better than most...

So a lot of people say I'm "obsessed" with my boyfriend, I apparently think our relationship is 'perfect' which is bull crap. I WILL, however, say it's much better than most. Our relationship isn't based on sex. Most people in high school say 'I love you' after they have sex. Sadly, most of the time it isn't true. Just because you have sex with someone doesn't mean you love anyone anymore. Sex is, to my mind, disgusting when I think of it in high school. It used to be a way you said I love you. ANYWAY. Tyler doesn't look at me for my looks and how much 'I give him'. People have told others that we've done so much than we really have. All we ever really do is play video games or we're out watching a movie having a good time. I'm with him because I know I can trust him and just his presence makes me warmer. I'm not going to say I'm sure it'll last forever. I will hope for it but only God knows what will come out of it. We get into arguements a lot...it happens. I'm comfortable around him. So I'm not 'obsessed' with my boyfriend. I just love the fact that our relationship is how it is. We've been together 4 months tomorrow and it HASN'T been perfect like every other couple says theirs is but it's been quite a trip. I love him a lot and I hope we're ALWAYS friends through whatever <3  

Since its Valentines Day and such...

To me, today is just Tuesday. I did buy Tyler this that and the other but I didn't want anything is return. I don't want anything because the best gift is the one he gives me everyday. Valentines day should be a reminder to guys of how to treat a lady not just on ONE day but every day. Tyler means the world to me and people think that because were best friends means we are perfect and never fight and such.....LOLOLOLOLOL WRONG. We are just like any other couple in the world. I get annoyed with him just as he gets with me but the smile he has....I could never stay mad at him. Teenage love, high school sweet heart, whatever it may be all I know is that my life is straight and he makes it to where I don't have to worry about how I look and when I get mad he always gives me the best hugs and makes me feel better. I have loved this kid for a LONG time now at first, I pushed him away just to stay friends but now I'm SO glad were together I love you Tyler Jovan Castellanos :)